Lynn's Diary

Lynn?s Diary: my travels down a road of sexual exploration? My mind is reeling; it?s hard for me to comprehend everything that happened last night. I?m lying here in bed, stark naked, and I?m not alone. (That, in itself, is front page news for me, ever since my divorce four years ago). Not only am I not alone, but the companions are in bed with me. (Yes, there are two of them?) I hardly know where to begin, as I think about how to write today?s diary entry. I look back over the last four nights and I can?t believe the changes that have come over me. It?s almost frightening, but I have such an overwhelming sense of excitement and fulfilment. I can?t wait to see what the future will bring. I?m a pretty typical middle class woman in her forties. I?ve lived in a big city for many years, and was married for a long time to a man who had a beautiful daughter, Erica, from a prior marriage. Although she's not really a relation (biologically speaking) I raised her like a daughter. Erica is now almost finished with college. Since she moved away to school (four hundred miles away), and since my divorce three years ago, I?ve been pretty lonely. All that began to change four nights ago. I was so amazed at the sheer power of the release of my pent-up sexual frustrations that I decided to keep a written record of it all. I?ve come so far in only four days; who knows where it will end? Before I begin writing Day Four in my sexual diary, I?ll go back and read my entries from the beginning? My Diary ? Day One Last night I discovered the thrill of being a first-time voyeur, even though it was an accident; I had no intention of spying on them. Erica?s boyfriend, Dave, wanted to spend time with her every night this week (she?s home for the holidays). With a broken down car being repaired, he?s counting on Cameron, his room mate, for transportation. Erica and Dave spent the evening here, enjoying a movie and a quiet night by the fire. I wanted them to have some time to themselves, so I went to bed early. Cameron would arrive at midnight to take Dave back to their apartment in the suburbs. Dave and Erica met at college, but he finished a year ahead of her and now he lives here in the city. I knew they were very anxious to be alone together, but I was still surprised by what I saw. Tiptoeing downstairs to get a drink, I looked around the corner, expecting Dave and Erica to be watching TV. Instead, I froze in my tracks and stood in the darkened hallway, staring at them for an hour. I?m ashamed to admit to spying on them; I don?t even want to write down what I saw. It was just a lot of fondling and kissing, a few buttons undone and pants unzipped. They were so hot for each other but were trying to be careful and not go too far, with me being right upstairs. They couldn?t do anything in real privacy since they had to stay downstairs so I wouldn?t see what they were doing. The ring of the doorbell brought me to my senses; it was Dave?s roommate, Cameron, picking him up for the ride home. I chatted with Cameron for a few minutes as Erica and Dave made themselves presentable in the next room. Erica said goodnight, and the two guys took off. As I went back to my bedroom, my mind whirled with thoughts of shame, curiosity, and most of all, passion. I was ashamed of spying on Erica, but even more ashamed that I had so enjoyed it so much. And my sense of curiosity ? this was about my reaction to meeting Cameron. At my age, I look back and realize that when I was younger, interracial couples were much more rare than they are now. I am mildly shocked at myself for being so aroused by my first meeting with Cameron. He was such a handsome young man, but the fact that he was such a sexy young black man seemed to turn me on ? why? I kept telling myself there was nothing forbidden Tunalı escort bayan about it, but there was no denying that his appearance at my door had increased the wetness in my pussy, already damp and tingling from watching the erotic wrestling of the two young lovers in my living room. The day ended with me rubbing my clit and teasing my nipples. I brought myself to orgasm by imagining that Cameron was in some dark corner of my bedroom, watching me from the shadows. It felt so shameful; I had never imagined anything like that in my fantasy life before. But the sense of shame heightened my arousal and my orgasm was the strongest I had felt in a long, long time. Day Two Dave and Erica were at it again last night, but they went way beyond the groping and fondling stage. Knowing what was probably going on, I couldn?t help tiptoeing downstairs in my bathrobe, anxious for another look. This time my pussy was already dripping even before I looked around the corner. As I hovered at the bottom of the stairs, breathlessly watching, I saw Dave pull Erica?s panties down and eat her pussy. Still in her short skirt, she lay spread-eagled on the sofa, clutching at the back of his neck and squirming ecstatically until she came all over his face. Seeing the look on Erica?s face as she forced his mouth down onto her wetness, I became even more aware of my own intense arousal. I was reaching inside my robe and fondling my nipples; I told myself, ?I wish he was doing this to me.? I felt so ashamed when I realized that I wasn?t thinking of Dave ? I was fantasizing about Cameron! My face flushed with shame but feeling so alive with excitement, I hurried back up to my room. I threw off my robe and quickly rummaged through the drawer of my night stand. In the back of the drawer, I found it: a huge black rubber dildo. I had never used it ? my husband had given it to me years ago as a joke. It was so big I never even thought about using it; it seemed so huge that I thought it would tear me apart. Why did the fact that this was an interracial fantasy turn me on so much? I didn?t spend any time trying to think it through; I just imagined that Cameron had stepped out of the shadows. I pretended that he was watching me now as I lay on the bed, naked and breathless. I slowly pushed the shaft of my black toy into my mouth until it choked me and I sputtered wetness all over it. I was drooling down my chin, but I didn?t wipe it off. I just kept sucking, trying in vain to take in all ten inches. My jaw started to ache from the strain of trying to open wide for the massive shaft of my dildo. I couldn?t come close to putting it all in my mouth, and I knew this thing would never fit in my pussy. But I was desperate to be fucked, and I knew that just rubbing my clit and using my fingers would never be enough tonight. I spread my legs, grabbed that monstrous shaft with both hands, and started probing my aching cunt. Grunting with pleasure, it took a long while for me to spread my pussy open enough to accept that huge ten-inch rubber cock. But I found that every time I thought I had taken as much as I could take, I just imagined Cameron?s hands on me. Somehow I managed to take another two inches, then another two. Before long, my body relaxed and my pussy was begging to be stretched more and more. Soon I was ramming myself deliriously with ten inches of wet cock as my body squirmed back on forth on the bed. I pretended that Cameron was there, watching me and loving it. I can?t remember the last time I came so hard and so long. I heard the doorbell ring at midnight and knew that Cameron was picking up Dave for the ride home; I fell asleep imagining Cameron holding me in his arms. Day Three On Day Two I had been so overcome with passion Escort ulus that I didn?t remain downstairs long enough to see what happened after Dave had eaten Erica?s pussy and made her cum so hard. Last night I stayed and saw more of the show, and I was dumbfounded at how much it turned me on. My nipples ached and my pussy was absolutely gushing. I could feel a stream of wetness oozing down my inner thighs as I watched them. They were swept away in a flood of passion that took me along with them. I saw Erica slide Dave?s jeans down as he stood there, kissing her. He had already removed every stitch of Erica?s clothing, and I blushed as I marveled at the beauty of her nakedness. I stood there, transfixed as her hands caressed and fondled him through his boxers. I could see the outline of his enormous cock from where I was hiding. My cheeks reddened even more when I realized how wet my pussy was getting. I knew I should go back upstairs and leave them alone, but I just couldn?t move. I was spellbound as I watched Erica drop to her knees, pulling down Dave?s boxers to release Dave?s incredible cock. I watched her lovingly fondle and lick Dave?s shaft until it was massively hard. It was at least seven inches long, and so thick and fat. Her hands fondled the straining muscles of Dave?s thighs as her mouth opened wide to accept his throbbing dick. Dave?s hands gently caressed her hair and pulled her toward him. Their hands told each other of their growing urgency, Dave wanting to fuck her mouth, Erica wanting to take in every long, throbbing inch. They pulled each other in, closer, faster, with muffled groans growing more and more intense. I almost cried out as Erica increased her pace and engulfed that unbelievably thick shaft, then pulled back, sputtering and gasping for air. She wrapped two hands around Dave?s amazing cock, her interlocking fingers squeezing him like a tight little pussy, milking him as her saliva dripped from his dick and drooled from her chin. The scene as Dave's cock exploded was like something out of a raunchy porn video. I suddenly turned and hurried back up the stairs with my heart pounding, not believing what I had just seen. As I reached my bedroom I tore off my robe; I couldn?t wait to get my hands on that huge rubber dildo. Wetness already gushing from my tingling pussy, I fucked myself to a mind-shattering orgasm as I pictured the incredible eruption of jizz that I had just seen exploding from Dave?s beautiful cock. Erica had coaxed at least a half dozen massive spurts of thick cum from that hot slick shaft, and he was still cumming as she sucked him clean while I hurried away in shame. Shame, yes ? but also excitement, not know what the next night would bring. I marveled at how the night before, I had found it so difficult to get that gigantic toy into my pussy. This time I was so fucking turned on that I just grabbed it and started reaming myself hard and deep right away. My pussy gripped the shaft so tight, I was in heaven. My orgasm rolled and rolled over me like multiple tidal waves. ?Fuck me Cameron? oh god, please fuck me harder!? I couldn?t believe I was saying those words to myself as I came and came. Cameron had only met me once, for two minutes at my front door, but now I seemed obsessed with him. I still felt shame, but even stronger than shame was my lust for something that to me felt taboo, forbidden. And I knew it was impossible; what conceivable reason would a handsome young kid have for being attracted to a middle-aged divorcee like me? My lust has been growing and growing over the last three days, fueled by the increasing passion I?m witnessing in Dave and Erica, one night after another. To make things worse, I?m being driven to distraction by the added passion of my forbidden yenimahalle escort fantasies about Cameron. I don?t know if he excites me because I?ve never been with a black man, or because I know that nothing will ever really happen. I realize that these are nothing but outrageous fantasies. All I know is that I want so badly for it to be real, that I?ve been fucking myself silly every night with that gigantic black cock. Of course, it?s only a toy, the only sexual outlet I have available right now. But the tighter I grip it, the wider I spread my pussy, the deeper and harder I fuck myself, the more strongly I feel Cameron?s presence in the room with me. As I orgasm over and over every night, whimpering his name as I cum repeatedly, I?m dying to hear his voice answer me. Day Four Last night was so incredible; I can?t believe the changes that have come over me in only four days. I?m almost frightened when I imagine that I?ve gone through some doorway into a forbidden world. Something this mind-boggling can?t be real; I?m determined to write down every detail just to be sure it really happened. Last night, knowing that Erica and Dave?s insatiable lust would be driving them to even greater extremes each night, I put on my bathrobe and tiptoed downstairs. I was determined this time to stay all the way to the end. Besides, I wanted to be there when Cameron arrived later to pick Dave up. As I peeked around the corner, I couldn?t believe my eyes. Erica had gone beyond any sense of keeping things low-key and quiet. The two lovers were just outright fucking each other with reckless abandon. I was actually jealous as I saw my daughter being fucked senseless by this incredible stud with the to-die-for seven-inch cock. Dave went on and on for an hour, then two hours; I couldn?t believe he could do what he was doing and keep himself from cumming as he pleasured Erica for so long. He sat on the sofa as she impaled herself on his shaft, letting Dave suck her tits and fondle her ass as she rode him. I watched her get on all fours and offer her ass to him, as he grabbed her by the hips and fucked her pussy from behind. I watched her lie back in the leather easy chair with her legs in the air, putting her ankles up on Dave?s shoulders as he pounded her. In every position they tried, Dave gave her the fucking of her life, and I heard Erica groaning and letting out muffled cries, biting her lip to keep from screaming as she came. And she came, and came and came. After every orgasm, they held each other and kissed passionately as Dave caressed her body. Her nipples were so hard, her pussy so wet I imagined I could smell her sweet musky aroma from where I was standing. Suddenly I realized that it wasn?t Erica?s heat and wetness that I was sensing. Without realizing it, I had pulled open my robe and had been standing there ? I don?t know how long ? with my thighs trembling and my fingers probing my own pussy. Creamy wetness streamed down my inner thighs as my fingers went from circling to pinching to lightly spanking my clit, to deeply probing my wetness. God, I was so fucking turned on, watching Dave make Erica cum over and over; I needed to cum myself. ?They are so fucking sexy together, aren?t they?? I froze in shock at the sound of a man?s voice from over my shoulder ? someone was right behind me! ?sshhh? it?s OK, Lynn? don?t let them know we?re here!? I was terrified, but the voice sounded reassuring and familiar. Forgetting that I was fully exposed in an open bathrobe, I quickly turned around ? and saw Cameron! He was standing in the hallway next to the stairs; how long had he been there, watching? Holding a finger up to my lips to keep me quiet, he smiled at me and waited just a bit, letting me calm down. From the next room, we heard the raunchiest sounds I had heard yet coming from Dave and Erica. Cameron was smiling at what we were hearing, but soon my face was burning as I realized that he was also staring and smiling at me. The shame I felt was not only because the scent of my pussy filled the hallway; or because I was practically naked.