The realities of my cock size

The realities of my cock sizeIt has been four days since me and my partner have done anything together. The last time she had me on my back jerking my cock (about 5 inches) and she was playing with my balls. I don't know what it is but as soon as she touches my balls I become so horny and pathetic. She usually ends up laughing at me as I jerk my cock, calling me her dirty little slut as I become so submissive. I cannot help it though, as I love having her squeeze and slap my balls and tweak my nipples. Of course, the closer I get to cumming, then the intensity of the slaps and squeezes increase. Anyways, it had been four days since I'd had the honor of being with her. So last night, I ended up massaging her back and butt for about an hour. Of course, I had an erection all the way through it. Who wouldn't? Watching her butthole and pussy open as I massaged her soft skin. After the massage, I pretty much begged to go in the bedroom, she laughed, and we went in. She jerked my cock very gently with her finger and thumb, for a bit, before she said she wanted to cum - Let me get this clear, she never cums from my dick (I think it's too small), she always cums via her hitachi. If I'm lucky I get to lean over her and suck on my nipples. Usually she has the hitachi wand in her right hand and my balls in her left, and we jerk off together. I don't Escort bayan know how we got like this, we used to fuck all the time. Similarly, I'd be overly protective too, jealous about any other men. But not anymore. I love her so much, and the pleasure that she gives me, that I'd happily allow her to fuck other guy's with bigger dicks - just to see if a well endowed member could make her cum without the hitachi. Like I said, I never used to have this complex, but since she introduced me to this role reversal, I find I get really turned on by my submissive role. So back to last night, she had me lean over her, and told me to play with my cock as she held my balls and made herself cum. After she came, she got the wand and teased the tip of my cock until I was moaning and panting. This would be the second time I had cum from the wand, the humiliation was quite liberating. The first time, over a week ago, I had held the wand on the tip of my cock and I only came after a long time because she was slapping my balls. I've also been asking (begging really), for her to fuck me again. She ignored the request, and does for a while (perhaps on purpose?), but I got it last night. A 9 inch ribbed dido which feels amazing when she is fucking me with it. I cannot replicate the same feeling by myself, it is only Bayan escort her that gets me feeling that way, hence my adoration for her. So last night, I asked for it again and told me to fetch the dildo and lube. I did eagerly, and got back on the bed. Lying on my back, she lubed my hole, and pushed the dildo against my hole, it took a few attempts, and again, she said, that I wasn't ready for it, but I pleaded that I was, even though it hurt. I held the wand on the tip of my cock, and begged for it harder. She did, slamming it in all the way in one quick motion, then slowly withdrawing it. After five of these almost painful penetrations, in combination with the wand, I came. She laughed at me, and I laughed sheepishly, kind of admitting how slutty I am when I'm horny. I hope one day she takes it to another level. I'd love her to completely dominate me, make me eat my cum afterwards, or maybe have me in a chastity cage as she fucks me. But last night was great, a hands free cum more like a slutty girl than a man. Before I go and jerk off, she also recorded some show about swingers the other night for herself. What I'd like to know is how do I find out if it is my cock size? Like I said, I'd be happy for her to get pleasure from a big cock (In fact that is what I jerk off about these days). She can be Escort quite shy about not revealing her fantasies. I know she used to cum thinking of me having gay sex (a guy fucking me), but how do I hint at her that I won't be jealous, but supportive if she wants a bigger cock?A week has passed...Two days ago, she wasn't in the mood for sex. Whilst massaging her back, i was pleading to fuck her for around 20 mins, she compromised and trapped my cock between her legs. For a good ten minutes i thrust and chafed my cock getting frustratingly close, all the while listening to her giggles. She pushed me back, having had enough of my futile jiggling, grabbed my halls and told me to 'jerk my dirty little cock'. 1 minute later i was spent all over my chest and my halls ached with the warm glow reminding me of my humble position. Last night i was allowed to fuck her. She was on her side and i stuck my cock inside her thrusting with all my might into her beautiful pussy. It felt good for me but i could tell that however powerful i thrust that it didnt hit the spot for her. all the time thinking of how she needs a guy with a bigger dick to fill her proper.After she had placated me for 5 mins she 'wanted to cum' and proceeded to lie on her back and use her wand, telling me to 'play with her tits'. It didn't take her long - 5 minutes till she tensed, expelling a luxurious moan of release. She then told me to 'jerk it slut', while she squeezed my sack, pushing my halls inside me, and then she wanked the sack whilst i jerked. A lovely glow upon release and a thought lingering that she needs something more than my 5 in her.